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My snippet comes from my WIP CZECH MATE (Navy Seals of Valor 2). Anticipated release date for this book is November 25, 2014. In this scene, Air Force captain Baylee Stiles has avoided Navy SEAL Nathan Brooks ever since he asked her a question that brought back her painful past. Baylee battles with her past and her fears, which are standing in the way of a second chance at love and happiness.
After an eight-mile run and a weight workout, Baylee still felt like she wanted to punch the first person she saw. Why can’t I get a handle on my emotions? They lapped around her like an encroaching sea, threatening to drown her.
Ever since her recent conversation with Nathan, she kept flashing back to the day of Tyler’s death. If she didn’t put a lid on her feelings fast, she’d be back to not being able to drag herself out of bed and bursting into tears randomly during the day.
No, I won’t let that happen. She knew the best way to keep her feelings at bay was to remain detached from everything. She couldn’t allow herself to care about Nathan or anyone else. Caring about people was dangerous. Pursuing work that involved compassion and kindness was dangerous. She needed to bury every sliver of love and compassion and keep anger and aggression in the forefront of her mind.
She hadn’t become whom she’d aspired to be, but that was okay. She had become the person it was safe to be. The person she had wanted to be was weak and inclined to cry or hug a stranger in need or to share an inspiring story in hopes of helping someone else. What a bunch of crap.
Baylee strode toward the punching bag that hung from the workout room ceiling. Gloveless, she attacked it, imagining the bag was the weak person she wanted to drop to the floor.
She slugged the bag with a right hook, grunting and then jabbed with her right hand. Feeling completely crazed, she pummeled the bag over and over again, grinding her teeth together and fighting tears that threatened to burst free and flow like wild rivers. No, I’m not going to cry, she told herself. And then she unleashed another round of fury against the bag.
An hour later, she emerged from the gym with bleeding knuckles. Her body sagged with total exhaustion and her mind felt deadened and emptied of feelings. It’s better that way, she thought, as she walked back to her bunkhouse alone.
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